Mother's Day Revelations

There are two points of view you can have on Mother's day: as your mother's child and/or as a mother. Today, I realized, that I had achieved both perspectives.

I have been gone from the blogging world because I have been busy being pregnant. I am actually in my 9th month and my due date is just two weeks away (which means I could go into labor at any moment). So no, I am not getting hand written cards from little ones or presents brought by my husband with my child's name written on them. I am not recounting all the joys of motherhood with other mom friends of mine. I did not have a fun filled day of mommy pampering. However, I am now a part of a group that has or will care for a child. My husband and I decided we wanted to have a baby; not every woman is so lucky.

Today I woke up like it was any other normal Sunday. I laughed with my husband in bed while we procrastinated getting started on a day in which we had no plans to accomplish. I even made breakfast. All this while ignoring the pesky texts messages I had been receiving since 6 am (from people on the East coast during their breakfast time, me being on the West) that said "Happy Mother's Day." You see, people had actually been saying that to me all week, and I have just smiled and said a polite thank you. I have never been a mother before and until last Sunday, I really didn't think I was one now. But, no matter what happens, I will have a child and I will have to fit "mommy" into my daily life. But when do you really become a mom? And Is it anymore who has given birth or is taking care of children? Was I a mom when I conceived or at least when I hit 23 weeks, the point in which the fetus inside me could live potentially live outside of my womb (with the help of science of course)? Or what about now, two weeks from "due", my baby being addressed by the name we have decided to give her?

Maybe that day started today, at least for me. To see the admiration people have for their mothers (something I have for my mother) and to have that same pride bestowed upon me was sort of surreal. Have I even been able to prove that I deserve admiration? Some must think so. Enough people took time out of their day to send me text and Facebook messages for me to see maybe I should take another look at how I see myself. All this Mother's Day attention helped me step into my next big role.

Right now, all I can do is plan to be the best mother I can be, something I learned from my mom. And after today, even though I have never done some of the amazing things people thank their mothers for, I know that I will. Being a good or great mom is a state of mind, living for your children and teaching them to love themselves as much as you love them (or more in some cases)! Thank you mom for all your love, something I have been transferring to my new daughter, even before she knows what a "mom" is.